hello there.

boy, it's been too long since the last time i was here. sorry for so much time absent.

well, the thing is that i'm still having a hard time getting my life straight again, i still have no idea who i am, what shold i do or get the inner streght needed to do it.

Did i ever tell you guys that i was like a freak that don't seem to fit or belong anywhere? well I am. i guess that's why i only like different and unusual stuff.
all my entire life has been like that, some times in more extreme ways than others. but i have always felt most people's hostility, reject and dissaproval. and i don't seem to be able to shake it off.
Most of my problems come from the hard childhood my father gave us and it seems i'm still not able to forgive him.

So that's the reason i haven't been around here. i still have moments when i get very depresive or very angry. well not so much lately but still. Oh And the fact that my laptop is Fucked up and i can't do nothing on DA, can't see messages, fav or comment, so yeah big prroblem.

but i HAVE got some luck non theless, i won an auction for 14 Baby Blues Scrapbooks!!!!!
it's sooo very awesome, that brought me a BIG smile. same with the second Ruby gloom book!
and some pretty cool transformers. Talking about that, I got to see the new Transformers Movie!!!!!! it was awesome, i loved it. i have already watched it 3 times


Soo, i still have faith in the future. and i will come back here to draw and post again and take care of the Ruby gloom club again. but it will take a while. Again, i'm very sorry for not being in touch with you my DA pals.
oh, i also got a webcam, maybe i'll do something with it.

also, remember that i don't have summer vacation, i'm still at school.

well, that's all for now. i'll also send some caring kisses to allison, and a message to Jonas, hey man you still owe me a picture and a drawing, don't think i've forgot!